I sit here tonight thinking of the next 16 days without my husband and realizing thats no big deal. My blog is a time for me to let go of emotions that keep my husband from me and our family. He was scheduled to leave on Sunday for deployment training and yet he's leaving 2 days earlier. Not by our choice and of course we're not happy about it, but what do we do.
Ryan is a good soldier. He takes care of those below him that he doesn't want left behind on a flight yet, he has to do it and he's frustrated which makes me frustrated for him. Less than 24 hours and I send him off to no mans land.
I have yet to really deal with the emotions of my husband leaving. We have no official orders, but a lot of training and a "boots on ground" date that we can't disclose. Its very frustrating as the FRG leader. Technically I'm the Family Readiness Group leader. I help the families of spouses, parents, children, etc deal with their spouse deployed while doing the same for myself. I've shed tears, but their tears of confusion, sadness and normal crying for all the soldiers leaving. Its hard. Its hard knowing months out the center of your family is leaving for numerous trainings and not knowing how to react. My husband is an Active Duty soldier....his full time job is the Army. That what pays his salary for his wife and kids. Today I feel like a very proud Army wife.
